I have a
love-hate relationship with growing up. Going to colleges was challenging for
me. It made my love-hate relationship more apparent to me.
BYU was really snazzy. I really loved the feeling I got
there and it would have been a great experience if I hadn't gotten lost and
sunburned. (Yes, my skin is so sensitive that it got sunburned...from snow.) I
got lost and I wasn't able to go to a class I wanted to go to. That made me
really worried because I am normally get lost in a parking lot (True story, ask
Carlynn). How am I going to get to class...on time? It was also freezing at BYU
that day and made me hate the snow even more!
I fell on my butt at UVU. I was beginning to wonder if all
these bad things that were happening to me were signs. Anyway, I fell on my
butt and Chandler laughed. The one thing I loved about UVU was that it was all
connected. I didn't have to face the cold weather! Or fall on my butt again.
There was a lot of green and I felt like I was at an airport. I didn't get
lost, which I was surprised about. All in all I would have had a wonderful time
if it wasn't for the bruised bum.
I thought there was a lot of green at UVU that is nothing
compared to the red at UofU! (Art nerd time! They are complimentary colors!)
The highlight of the day was the Canadian car that was half parked in a pile of
snow. (Picture is so included.) Ian Seth Boggess got us lost. Luckily, it
wasn't for long. We met the group and went to meet our tour guide. He wasn't
the best tour guide of the bunch. (That goes to UVU) The thing that sold me at
UofU was the womb chairs and I really wanted to sit on one but all of them were
taken! The campus was really pretty and I wanted to draw a lot of the buildings.
I am scared of change. I have had a lot of drastic changes
in my life and I don't like them. I rather be like Huck and ran away from my
problems but I know I can't. College is coming at me wither I like it or not. it
is something that I know I have to face and while I am excited for it there is
a shadow of doubt clouding what could be fun.
Who am I? I know I am a daughter of God and that he loves me
with all his heart.
What was I born to do? I wish it was to sleep and be lazy
but it is not. Truthfully, I don't know yet.
What is stopping me? Me and all my doubts. It has been this
way since I was little and it is something that I am trying to fight.
(Oh, Canadians!)
You have a conscious cognition of yourself in respect of your belief, your value, your aspiration and even your disadvantage. This cognition is rare in your age, but essential to further course in future. One day you will find the purpose of your life and obsessed by it.
ReplyDeletei really had a wonderful week when we were visiting the colleges. For some reason, i feel like having the same problem as you do. it seems like there are too many things are troubling me, and i dont want to face them. Or i should say, i am afraid. Maybe that's one of the reason for me to come to America. I thought i a new environment can wipe off all my troubles. But it didn't, the new troubles keep coming up to me. so it's right for you to think it that way, to try your best to over come all the difficulties.
ReplyDeleteThis post gave a great summary of the field trips we went on. Like Tanlen I also felt a little overwhelmed about how fast everything is going. But I know that if we keep going and try our best everything will be fine.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodnes I am so happy you posted that picture to your blog!!! That was such a fun and crazy day(:
ReplyDeleteI like your writing style! Haha! Thats amazing that you fell down, got lost, got sunburned, etc. Maybe you are allergic to college! jk, you will have a great time :)
ReplyDelete(BTW, This post is late because of connection problems. I got them to Mrs Meeks on time)